I thought I’d share with you guys some psychological reviews I received on myself not just for the sake of showing who I am a bit but perhaps some of you may relate. That maybe some of you can try to figure yourselves out more. Maybe some of you were wondering what type of person I am? Haha. I got them from my counsellor and well, apart from interesting it really made me take a big step in understanding or at least begin understanding who I am unconsciously which is the true self. On my journey through battling depression and anxiety one thing that really stuck with me is that “I am not who I think I am I need to let go. My thoughts are deceiving me I need to let go”. Almost every morning I repeat this to myself so that I can begin the day with a clear mind and remember that I have no control over reality because reality exists without my perceptions and that the more I let go of my thoughts the more free I become. But, without any further ado, here are my review readings.
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener and you treat people with no judgement at all. You are almost too modest to be human because you have very traditional morals and standards. You feel out of place in crowds because you are quiet and soft spoken. You tend to speak only when you are spoken to.
The type of partner you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don’t judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren’t necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people’s eyes. You have a strong belief in soul connection so you haven’t had many serious relationships. You are surpassingly expressive and you want someone to be able to cradle what you have to give. You see past people’s exterior and read people very well but your humility makes people think you don’t know what they are feeling. You like conversant people who stay away from the “hype” of society. You are an energy magnet so you when you are drawn to someone with good energy, your energy connects because you are good.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person. If you suspect bad energy, you subtract yourself. You are not afraid to commit because you have a very soft heart but your strong mind makes you intelligent enough to know who to give your heart away to.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to laugh and hear people’s stories. You tend to have people’s attention by your voice and what you have to say. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that’s why you’ll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But you are very very particular with the persons you choose to always interact with. Males are very attracted to you even without conversation because of your body language. You are very sexually attractive through your demureness and its quite weird. You are standoffish and stern when men come on to you but they have a hard time believing you are serious because of your soft voice. You are definitely a lover and not a fighter. You will protect what is yours and you raise questions when something is unfamiliar.
Your views on education:
Education is a journey to you and it is not restricted only to academics. You are a guru to some people and a tabula rasa to others. Your mind is very open.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don’t focus on something in particular. You are very artistic and have a hard time choosing which type of art to pursue. You are worried that what you have to show might not peak the interest of masses of people. You will succeed in anything you put your mind to.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don’t ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you. You fear abandonment and death. The death you fear is the eternal separation from the ones you love.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long. You are like a bird in a cage, you are free with the way you express yourself, but you still aren’t truly free until you come out of that cage. Your emotions create storms inside of you and you have fears of heart break from them. You are misunderstood and underestimated but that does not affect your strong opinion about yourself. You magnify the strengths in people and they look forward to your advice. You care for and help people because it brings you joy. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person but it sometimes gets hidden in the way your wrap yourself in thoughts. This sometimes encourages people to perceive you as being too quiet. You are still discovering and revealing yourself and in that journey you often get misinterpreted.
I want to remind any of you battling with self image/self confidence that everything is in the mind. And without any perception of anything we are all just functional human beings operating for survival. Its our emotions that make our lives complex. Your mind does not care about the way you feel, it only cares about operating as a brain for the body to survive. As soon as you realize that you are a prisoner to your thoughts, you will be free. Don’t try to block out negative thoughts, try to understand first why you are having them, understand that its okay to have them, then free yourself. Learn to accept that your thoughts are not who you are. Remember that people’s behaviours are not as a result of what you perceive them to be or what you think. The world operates around you and not for you. Embrace and enjoy the positive and happy moments in your life. Love the person you love hard. Do what it takes to reach your goals. The right people will stay in your life. Prioritize the things and people that will magnify you. Spend time thinking, then free yourself. Life’s journey is meant to be colourful and calm. Discover yourself. Accept yourself. Then remember yourself is free.